Boku no Inochi Dakara

I've been really down lately, since the job market is looking kind of thin. I have no leads currently, and all the applications I put in (about 20 or so) have been put "on file." Every single one. I think that's enough to dishearten anyone. I keep thinking positive thoughts, though, because it's one of the only ways to keep me from being bitchy all the time because I'm upset about my situation. I'm going up to the bike shop near my house tomorrow to get a new rim for my bike tire, then next week (my weekend is booked) I'll ride down to the mall and just fill out applications everywhere. Maybe it'll work.

Today's post title is in Japanese, and it means "Because it's my life." I keep thinking that this is my one life to live as Katie, daughter of two loving and fun parents, sister of two fabulous women, and friend of some really awesome and supportive people, so I'm going to make the most of it. In an anime I watched a while ago called 'Manabi Straight!' the main character's favorite phrase was "kyo mo ichinichi massugu ni go" or "today is all straight forward go!" I've been trying to adopt that sort of thought process, and I've adapted that saying to fit myself.

Kyou mo mainichi massugu ni go! (today and every day is straight forward go!) It helps a little when I'm feeling really down about something. And whatever helps, right? Haha, anime: my anti-drug.

And now, for some pictures.

Here we have Manny. Manny is an alpaca. Isn't he cute? Em got him for me from a store up where she lives. He's made from alpaca wool and is mostly fluff. Manny keeps me company by my computer and guards my knitting needles. I have to be careful now, because he seems to really like the merino wool I got for the cosplay socks (the WIP you see posed with him). I quite like the way they're coming out; they'll be nice and cushy on my feet while still being comfortable at the same time.
I caught Manny earlier tonight trying to get out my door with a skein of the black merino.
He's on probation now, and I'm going to have to lock the merino away, because Calvin has also taken an interest in it, and he wreaks havoc on yarn of any kind.
Speaking of wreaking havoc on yarn, Emily texted me earlier today to say that she had seen the second moth in her house in a week and was panicking an option yet? I calmly asked if they were anywhere near her stash, and had she checked it yet? She said no, but she was shaking out her yarn to be safe. I don't blame her, every time I see a moth I follow it with my eyes until it lands and I can kill it, even when I'm not at home. Actually, at the pet store, I got very good at moth-fu, or the art of knocking a moth out of the air with a shotei punch and then squashing it with your foot or any available flat, heavy object.
I have an email-penpal in South Korea, and she's very sweet. She wants to learn several languages and work in the UN as a translator. She tells me all the time that her friends tease her that her English is better than her Korean, and I always tell her that her English is very good (it is, I have to say) and that if she works hard I'm sure she'll get the job she wants. She always tells me that receiving emails from me makes her feel better, because I'm always so positive. It makes me smile hearing that I made someone else feel better. She told me that in her English class, one of their tests was they had to pick a person, place, or object that was important to them and describe why in front of the class. She chose to talk about me, and how I always had something nice to say and helped her with her English all the time. She won a prize for her speech, and her English grade has gone up since she started emailing me.
It's the small things like that that make me feel like all the tough stuff you go through are worth it in the end. Knowing that I'm helping someone in a completely different country, even if it's just correcting a verb tense, and receiving a note of gratitude for it the next day makes the crappy day I had at work lighten some. Am I sounding too sappy? Maybe. But oh well.
You don't get harmony when everybody sings the same note.
~Doug Floyd


Donna Lee said...

I like that "all straight forward go". Don't worry, the job will come. And keep Manny out of my stash! I wouldn't put it past you to train him to steal.

Em said...

Mom, I think you have a point. She already raids your stash, I can just see her training something even cuter and sweeter to do it for her--less chance of repercussions.

Kate-a-babe, you'll find employment soon. When I first started looking for a job, I was in the same boat. So many applications, no calls back. It's frustrating, but you do have marketable skills. Maybe you and I can work on your resume this week?